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time has passed... but I'm back!

feel great! better than ever. I'm at the stage of implementation of new ideas in my life. such concrete ideas. not just buying a computer or planning new photo shoot. and now I know that probably you would expect me to said something more.... but reading my previous posts you well know that... so I'll leave it now. 
all in good time! Now let's move on to the next photo shoot! 

I'm glad that this new post will begin new photo session and dance video that I created for the Studio Dance Theatre 

(Pracownia Teatru Tańca)


it all began with that one shot:

I already knew what I wanted to do. Having such a well-organized group with a huge awareness of their body, I was sure that it will succeed.

a lot of work, especially their work... it's a pleasure to work with such a harmonious and conscious group of people. 



Nature is the concept of the photo shoot. 
familiar with the nature.... it's still a bad word

during the planning session the worst thing was that the photographs were not challenging in any way controversial, not to emanated nakedness... 

Such perception would destroy the whole concept.

Now I'm curious how you take it. 

 Pracownia Teatru Tańca is a very close-knit group. because they appeared in one "cluster" and in such a beautiful composition 

(I think)

 I like these photos.

in conjunction interesting is that every photo exudes some emotion.

 I see a certain uncertainty, another curiosity, on yet another total relaxation.

I'm curious about what they were thinking about... because in addition to being together for several years each of these people have their lives, their problems... And so it looks to me.

it shows

there is no indifference

it's time for a video. would recommend you to see all their work...

be in touch with me!

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dying inside

Why is everything have to be so confusing. I'm so mentally weak!
and I hate it in myself. I wish I could see in the way you all see so I wouldn't see the things inside me. Fear.

I just don't know what I need.


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It's natural that a person behaves differently in his house when he is alone and otherwise in a public place. each of us has somewhere hidden "characters", sometimes very contradictory. 
it's not wrong. I include myself to them. 

Today's photo session was based mainly on our characters.

there is a lot of loneliness... 

isolation... 

we have those moments in your life when you feel that you need someone... excess is bad ... also lack of

Space Is Only Noise

officially finished my set of photographs "Understatement"

feel a little lighter... I don't know if I could add something more... these 5 photograph perfectly illustrates my attitude to the subject which I undertook - suicide.

much better to have photographs close, on paper, not only on the computer .. today I sleep with them. 

I'm not sick.

few more days and break... 

not mean lying in bed all day, don't like it.

 more time to think. new projects. 

maybe I will visit England on this holiday. I will write formally on my facebook site. So if you are from the UK, be ready!!!

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Nicolas Jaar in the background... fantastic melody.

 I didn't plan to write today. 

but after the first song something came over me...

I will not write a lot. even today I have to describe my work. Tomorrow presentation.

 Three beers and I take the action! Hold on!

Untitled

A big thank you for the 50,000 views on my blog!

 I don't adds posts too often but somehow you enter here! Thanks! 

If I would talk about everything that happened to me these days I probably wouldn't have finished write this post today :P 

So I'll just say the most important things ;)

Recently I took part in a photo session for the 

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Great team, great atmosphere... and it's not the end of cooperation with this brand - more soon! :)

Here is backstage photo: 

+Lord Guan 

and during the break... 

except that I took another photo shoot inspired by the "X-Men"!

 I hope that not only I look forward for the premiere of the new part!  X-men "Days of future past"! Here is our vision of "Storm" but in the men's release ;) 

This wasn't planned that I will be in the photo but besides us there was one person so I set the camera and gave it to my friend! why not! 

haha, just don't laugh! :P I tried to! ;) 

if we are talking now about the super heroes and super powers... my friend (model in my photos) creates a unique wand!! :P 

I got my own wand some time ago! :) great job! he plans to give them to online shop so if you dream about your own wand - follow me! :) If I knew something more I will write!

Weekend is coming so... wish you all the best! 

 btw my facebook site has 80.000 likes! believe it?! 

whooaah! 

Take Care! 

Take me

I didn't realize that it is so hard... what am I thinking? 

I have photographs...  like a medicine... 

I'm just afraid of words 

I'm glad to have found another way to express

people don't understand... people just stare, they see...

 say: it is strange .. but cool... because it is strange.

I very rarely write what I had in my mind while taking photos. 

I wanted to show something... some stories, people should be curious about this if they like it... should go deeper!

 what inspired me... but people just like it. click this button and... finally! I'm sure they have no idea about the fact that the photograph is not just a photograph... 

it's my words.

it's my history, sometimes imaginary... so what? 

 This is not just a piece of "eletronic" "piece"...

I give them life, give them a personality...

 give stories without end... 

I have no idea what is the end... 

this photo was taken a few days ago... 

I thought about the man who has his home, family... happy family. work ... if I was his a neighbor I'd thought he should be proud of what he has. 

he eats dinner with his family, and he says: I'm going for a walk...

and never come back. 

later we learn that he committed suicide. 

I've heard a lot of these situations. 

and l just can't understand it... I know that - is always a reason... 

but his act is a secret for the family... They probably never know the real reason... and this photograph show this...

 torn line... it isn't fully finished thing... 

is interrupted at some point, stopped...

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another photograph

    photo session with my photographer... 

usually is the opposite :P

    she's my "facebook" photographer! 

                            project "show me your smell" (three pics)

and at the end... this beautiful girl :)
so you don't think about my pictures of human bodies :P 

TAKE CARE! 

and thanks for the support! :)

 We've got 70.000 likes on facebook!! :) 

I promise that one day we will drink together! 

unfinished

 and everything behind me... 

  sometimes I'm just afraid of people. 

noticed that quite recently... I started to be aware of this when I pass them on the street. I'm afraid their sight. I always look down when someone avoids me. why do they look? what they think looking at you?

even in the pub, when you sit with your friends...and someone else says something... why do they look when you don't say anything! At such moments, I would like to turn around... View of a wooden tabletop would work for me better... definitely.

  I don't like people. 

I like loneliness...much more... sit alone... or with my dog​... 

I don't mind. 

each time it gets worse. I hope that my mental "stupidity" will not develop... I hope I won't have to run and go another way when someone will be in front of me... 

Then I really start to be afraid of myself.

I see this view a thousand times a day... I'm addicted

and unfinished drawings...

for some time I won't be finishing them... 
later... as something comes to mind...
I'll take them again or I'll start to draw something new... and again. don't finish them.
it is normal... 



I will show you some new photos soon
from the "zombie boy" session. + "behind the scene" video. 

Take Care! and thanks for 68.000 on facebook! 

Such emptiness...

I have to admit that this free time has given me a lot...

  I won't be talking about my Christmas.. uf.

topic that interests me the most... smell! 

the smell of human flesh!

I know...sounds awful... 

currently have only two photos.

I haven't so much time so every spare time spend on planning! this photos should be different...  what a job!

the best part is that I do it to pass the (photography)exam... 

but I feel immense pleasure reading various materials of human cadaver odor... the most important for me is to do something for myself... Recommend you all! every little moment to sacrifice the things you love... what a feeling!!! probably many of you have a hobby and knows what I'm talking about;)

besides, I've taken my friends some photos... 

feel bad... don't know what I really want, don't know is it good what I'm doing...        fucking life!

I guess I really need someone to take my hand and show me everything... tell me what to do... as a child...

I am terribly afraid that I... can't stand this strain...

every step hurts... and this damn uncertainty!!

Why I say this?? 

you don't know me... 

 maybe it is good that college begins again...  

and photo shoot inspired: Hobbit and elves

and finally:

Thank you for your support! 60,000 on facebook!

Take Care!  

and wish me mental health

Smell of my photographs...

 

A lot of things have changed .. I don't know when it all goes so fast ... a few more days and I will be 20-year-old man! it scares me! but realizes that this is just the beginning of my journey...

One day I'll stay dream...
and I will turn into real things...


I hate feeling when someone is hurt by me. It is like a scar that will never dissappear from my body... 


will always remind me about my mistakes... so stupid mistakes...

waiting for the first long weekend!  And I'm going home! 

need it!

Below you can see my last sketch, I'm an amateur.... and draw only for myself. I always have the same vision when I start drawing something... This has to be the face!!! However, my thoughts are not the result of what is on paper. there's always something different... and always at the end - my brain is still hungry/ thirsty... 

besides, I recently started a new photo project. 

"Show me this smell"

This is my subject... I have to take some photos :) and this time I will add something from myself!! in addition to the photograph I will show everyone in my class the smell of my photographs...

pictures soon! :) I will photograph the body that "breaks down". I know it isn't pleasant.

Here I am already preparing smell...  

and that's all :) 

TAKE CARE! 

WINGS

what a horrible days...
I shouldn't complain... but there are some things of which I just can't get away ... people... I'm addicted to some...
it's bad... 
and fate would have it, chose a better way...

Fate - which means: I myself

MAN has |suffering| in his nature... usually not many people thinks about these happier things in our lives when something more important is not the way it should... 
Then we can't enjoy life...because still thinking...

could ever come up with something to be able to stop thinking for a moment ... what a great feeling ... "great" .. I don't know .. so I think.

big plans, big dreams .. and now it's all slowly falling down...


I feel that more and more I "growing up" 
if a few years ago I had the problems that I have now I wouldn't be in this world ... even now I sometimes have scary thought ... but our mind is capable of anything ... so don't let it control us ... I noticed there are two different things ... mind is pernicious...


put to sleep...