Space Is Only Noise

officially finished my set of photographs "Understatement"

feel a little lighter... I don't know if I could add something more... these 5 photograph perfectly illustrates my attitude to the subject which I undertook - suicide.

much better to have photographs close, on paper, not only on the computer .. today I sleep with them. 

I'm not sick.

few more days and break... 

not mean lying in bed all day, don't like it.

 more time to think. new projects. 

maybe I will visit England on this holiday. I will write formally on my facebook site. So if you are from the UK, be ready!!!

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Nicolas Jaar in the background... fantastic melody.

 I didn't plan to write today. 

but after the first song something came over me...

I will not write a lot. even today I have to describe my work. Tomorrow presentation.

 Three beers and I take the action! Hold on!

WINGS

what a horrible days...
I shouldn't complain... but there are some things of which I just can't get away ... people... I'm addicted to some...
it's bad... 
and fate would have it, chose a better way...

Fate - which means: I myself

MAN has |suffering| in his nature... usually not many people thinks about these happier things in our lives when something more important is not the way it should... 
Then we can't enjoy life...because still thinking...

could ever come up with something to be able to stop thinking for a moment ... what a great feeling ... "great" .. I don't know .. so I think.

big plans, big dreams .. and now it's all slowly falling down...


I feel that more and more I "growing up" 
if a few years ago I had the problems that I have now I wouldn't be in this world ... even now I sometimes have scary thought ... but our mind is capable of anything ... so don't let it control us ... I noticed there are two different things ... mind is pernicious...


put to sleep... 

I’ll drown...

what I did in the last days?
I've done a special photo shoot for my dear friend : 
Lara La Voe, who will soon release her second book! 
and I have to say! She is a perfectionist!!

She knows what she wants! and it was an honor for me to help her be a part of her work .. her vision...

Before I show you some pictures, a few words from Lara!

"FOREVER YOUNG"

She was born at dawn, when the first beam of the sun... which haven't gone out for her for thousands of years.
She saw everything - the beginning and the end, life and death.
Each world.
Birth and death of kings, queens.
She saw the end the power of antiquity.
She watched the fall of the French monarchy.
And end of period.
Preserved youth, but has rejected humanity.
Aurora, goddess, eternally young, in search her house, a country where the queen will be.
I have met Aurora years ago and I'll never forget the first one, a silent conversation, that look of wisdom, glances, in which the hidden history of the world. Her eyes lit a light in my heart, the light that does not go out, sometimes only smoldering, but it is still visible, still visible, still full of hope. Aurora is a country in which no visitors gloomy night ... this country dawn morning. It's natural forces: air, water, soft, subtle, and yet so powerful and indestructible.
Soon I will share with you the story of Aurora, but now, for the time being ... in the meantime ... admire her face. The face of a woman whose beauty will never fade, and eternal life will change the course of the world" 

Lara La Voe
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This day was special :) and I want to thank you with all my heart "Isztarin" who has meke wonderful make up and thanks for the beautiful model :)  
This is not the end... over time there will be more stuff :) 
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Eric Vaughn Tarriela Gariando won the competition for the best photo (of yourself)!! There are so many moments you can share with anyone... what a wonderful relationship! 
really like it! :)  

His photo: 

will write to him today! :) 

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and a photo taken a week ago...
haven't had a chance to show earlier... Radoslav! 

near future... hope that everything goes according to my plan! :)

but!! I guess you don't care... vacation! :P 
and probably you enjoy your free day :) 
be Careful friends! :) 

Always know when to stop...

I don't know what to say first...

 recently I recorded part of my new video... 

I called it "The Cry Of The Soul"... why?

I want to show you my image of "fear", "anxiety", but I mean the internal state.... what's "going on" in my mind

(nothing is clear ) 

 This is a brief "picture" of what I always wanted to show...

 it can't be described in words...

I feel a great desire to create something... something that will help me to show what I can't say...

"The Cry of The Soul" 

The soul is our private part... I am not talking here about faith. I just want to show that everyone is different... and the "soul" is this element that clearly distinguishes us... soul can be everything for us...

rose is a one of the symbol of my videos. everything has own importance and it is part of what I am experiencing .. (and maybe you too)

+Lord Guan 

Here is a short trailer!(sounds like I recorded a great movie :P)

(you can you turn down the sound at the top of the screen)

 

btw I want to thank all of you who sent me your photo!

 I made a special collage :P You are all great!!! 

and here's me ^^ taken by N.S :) 

we made this photo in the middle of the night... wasn't planned .. but we wanted to do something :) 

we watched the various portfolios of the various model agencies :P and finally we took the camera and we walked around the house and take some photos ^^ 

and here new photo shoot... taken yesterday :) 

the weather was great...

 and finally photo with my own photographer!!! one and only!  

      Take Care friends! Have a nice week! :) 




 

I'm addicted...

I don't know if you know, but we have 45,000 likes on facebook!:)

still remember how I started to create my page :) it feels great! 

I plan to record a new video! Soon I will give a little preview... already have an introduction! :) 

I try to plan accordingly...  every scene, every shot...

Today I had a terrible evening... 

I didn't know that three beers can "kill me inside..." 

hah .. reminded me of the song "A Little party never killed nobody" :P in my village was a small party. I heard the music in my house... So I took my friends and I went to see what happens... 

it wasn't probably a good idea

  +Lord Guan 
so.. this time show you some photos taken a few days ago. 
recently I had some free time so I looked for some tutorials and I learned the simple editing... here's effect:

This was the first time with this kind of picture so many things are unprocessed... with time it will better and better... 

at least I hope so...

ROSE .. initial theme of my new Intro video... 

Now I need some rest after tonight... 

Have a nice week! 

and once again Thanks for all Your support!! 

Some things just make sense...

hope that you're all okay...

Now, when I wrote it in the outside sprinkles  a light rain... great atmosphere... with a coffee lying in bed and trying to write anything ... I want to provide you what I feel, I want to show you new pictures, video projects ... and much more.


if ever you asked yourself what you want to achieve in life?
if what you are doing is really needed... do it for yourself? life is not long ... but it gives us a chance to show yourself! in every way .. I think that you need to "fulfill"! I don't know if this is a good word... 
no matter who you are (what you do, how you work) it is normal that people working on it to make money .. in today's world, money is important ... but we must remember that we are still us! and while we have a chance we need to use it!


because I'm still looking for myself... I think/I believe! that someday I will find it and I will be satisfied in who I am...
want it with all my heart...

a lot of people say that love is the most important... 
and I have something to say...
love is important... but only true... each other are just "close friends" not that when "every week" we have someone new... it depends on what you want? You can try to indefinitely... 
and may finally that person prove that is this one, true person.


I think that love is growing gradually... we must first go through a simple "knowledge of a person" it's really a long process... but nothing is an obstacle ... 

Time is chasing us, yes, it's true... but if I have to be honest. I prefer to have a real love even for several years... just true love.. not fleeting...



I don't understand this world ... I don't understand people... their behavior...

nobody said it was easy... problems are forever! everyone makes mistakes, everyone!

why? because we are only human...

I hurt a lot of people...

I drank just one beer and  I want to write and write... STOP! 
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some fresh pictures:

this girl finishes middle school soon... and  must admit, she is really pretty..

other

recently I was on a motorcycle show in 2013 in Wroclaw ...

 I taken some photos there too...

and a little suprice... Lord Guan with these beautiful ladies... taken by Thomas! :)

TAKE CARE!

I feel I die...21 grams of soul

feels that something is running out of my body ... 

day-to-day... how can you live when your body is still shouting something. Sure you have those days where you don't see the meaning... I know, you can tell that it will pass .. disappear with time... but for me it takes months ... it's not depression, it's not typical grief ..don't know... 

is the cry of the soul...

can't describe...

If it were that simple...

I feel it in my veins, skin, bones...

but I have to tell you something .. I have massive support...

each of us has something that helps us .. for some it is family, friends, people ...

I will not tell you what helps me...  think most of you will be slightly confused... but it isn't a human... 

but this is the life? to still be under "someone's" wing?
in that case, I'll never be free...

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+Lord Guan 

I promised you to show you in this post pictures taken on the style of Harry Potter...  

in photography you can be anyone... 

Who do you want...  

Creating own world...

probably in the future I will do session like this...
a lot of fun behind the scene!  


boredom + self-timer = 

Today I was shooting my friend ... there is only one Finished.
Was taken in my basement .. this place is horrible! unless you like spiders, dust, cobwebs... 


My first thought of the movie:. "The Lovely Bones" 

glasses found in the woods... for photos all come in handy :)

Take Care friends! :) Thank's for following me on my facebook :)

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