learn from our failures...

so... I will start by thanking! anyone who belongs to "my community!" Lord Guan currently has 57,000 likes! :) Such a small thing!! but I'm very pleased! :) Thanks!

Recently I was on the "fencing competitions" 

took some pictures...

 these children for whom victory was the most important... huge commitment... and even tears! but it is good that at such a young age children learn to partic motivation! belief in yourself and in your own abilities ... You need to remember: 

We learn from our failures!

not from what we succeeds... first we have to lose sth, and the next time be more motivated!

In addition, I'm still working on some project

 (need for classes in college)

now have a few days off so I'll be able to finish it :)

I will not be talking about Christmas .. too much of it on Facebook! but I'll do something for you! : P I don't know what yet... I would like everyone to be involved! have time to think about it ;) but photo with Santa Claus cap will be on my site!! soon :)  

with a friend. preparation for the photo session;) The biggest fun gives the process of creating, fun... 

than the overall effect ;) 

but if something is starting you need to finish it! 

and here is the effect:

this time without complaining... 

Take Care! 

                             

Smell of my photographs...

 

A lot of things have changed .. I don't know when it all goes so fast ... a few more days and I will be 20-year-old man! it scares me! but realizes that this is just the beginning of my journey...

One day I'll stay dream...
and I will turn into real things...


I hate feeling when someone is hurt by me. It is like a scar that will never dissappear from my body... 


will always remind me about my mistakes... so stupid mistakes...

waiting for the first long weekend!  And I'm going home! 

need it!

Below you can see my last sketch, I'm an amateur.... and draw only for myself. I always have the same vision when I start drawing something... This has to be the face!!! However, my thoughts are not the result of what is on paper. there's always something different... and always at the end - my brain is still hungry/ thirsty... 

besides, I recently started a new photo project. 

"Show me this smell"

This is my subject... I have to take some photos :) and this time I will add something from myself!! in addition to the photograph I will show everyone in my class the smell of my photographs...

pictures soon! :) I will photograph the body that "breaks down". I know it isn't pleasant.

Here I am already preparing smell...  

and that's all :) 

TAKE CARE! 

Flaws

                        Welcome Wroclaw! 

awfully strange reality, the strange mentality of the people...

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a long time I wasn't here... 

with time I will find myself.

Now I can compare...my countryside and here... 

everything here is a quick ...

Late at night, close my eyes and suddenly everything is gone.

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I'm officially a student. 

and I can't hide that 20 years is no longer 15. Some things are gone and I can't go back to them... because some things just not proper to do it... I have a good example! I don't know when but  I no longer derive pleasure from watching cartoons! maybe you think it's a funny or just stupid... but when I was younger I always said that I will never be bored watching cartoons! I was surprised when my parents preferred to watch the news than a cartoon with me!it's strange! now, it's different but this is probably the right time, when in myself I understood that I'm no longer a kid .. I need to know that this is the right time to plan your future .. can't stand still in one place. 

Sincerely!

I don't like this life!

 I don't like this uncertainty! 

I don't like my stupidity!

I don't like my naivety!

and my belief that everything that I could ever come back to me!

I have nothing interesting to show You. 

me and my photographer on one picture. use self-timer.

here's my flat... huge housekeeping! and Woodkid music in the background... Now those few days before learning the full, well-deserved relax!! 

        Thank's for all! TAKE CARE!!! :)  

THE CRY OF THE SOUL

Each of us experienced those moments when you feel that you have nothing... you feel empty inside .. need arise again, you need a "person" / "inspiration" or some "energy"... which will give you strength... 

Video "The Cry Of The Soul" is a short story or "report" of my life... I think it would be foolish to show anything in the easy way.. So I used some elements, symbols to describe what I wanted to convey to you... maybe You think this is stupid what I'm doing... may think: why am I doing this? 

I just want to say that I felt a great need to record something like that.... I can now calm down... I can throw out from my inside all these problems which I have... I hope that is somewhere a person who understands me. 
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maybe it help: search symbols of each element contained in the video... as land, water, rose etc. 

Feel free to watch it. 

You DON'T HAVE TO SHARE IT, DON"T HAVE TO show your friends this video... I don't need it... I am happy that I did what I planned for a long time :) Thanks for Your support!
Take Care! 


 

I'm in the foreign state...

here is the last photo shoot :)

 perfect photo for "advertisement paint" :) 

only I have the feeling that time rushing so fast?

so many things at once ... 
everything is moving forward and only I'm standing in the same place...
recently even my dreams gave me to understand that...

+Lord Guan 

I stopped, I fell "in the swamp," and I can't move...

I can only scream .. but what is my cry, if there is no action on my part...
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here's my photographer... we are changing from time to time.

and the self-timer :) This time we are together... 

long planning session with a cigarette... I think that it was the last time I smoked.. still had to take another cigarette... horrible!!! 

except that I  still working on a new video... I also learning to play the guitar! I wanted to make a cover :) I've always dreamed about this... but a long road ahead of me :) 

btw, here is my first cover of my new video "The Cry Of The Soul"
for encouragement :) 

Thank you for likes on my facebook :)and Thanks for the video chat!!! I'm very happy that I was able to talk to you all :) lots of fun :P See you next time! :) 

TAKE CARE! :) 

WINGS

what a horrible days...
I shouldn't complain... but there are some things of which I just can't get away ... people... I'm addicted to some...
it's bad... 
and fate would have it, chose a better way...

Fate - which means: I myself

MAN has |suffering| in his nature... usually not many people thinks about these happier things in our lives when something more important is not the way it should... 
Then we can't enjoy life...because still thinking...

could ever come up with something to be able to stop thinking for a moment ... what a great feeling ... "great" .. I don't know .. so I think.

big plans, big dreams .. and now it's all slowly falling down...


I feel that more and more I "growing up" 
if a few years ago I had the problems that I have now I wouldn't be in this world ... even now I sometimes have scary thought ... but our mind is capable of anything ... so don't let it control us ... I noticed there are two different things ... mind is pernicious...


put to sleep... 

Private gravity...

all that's left undone

and it is precisely this moment when I need some repair...

“People come, people go – they’ll drift in and out of your life, almost like characters in a favorite book. When you finally close the cover, the characters have told their story and you start up again with another book, complete with new characters and adventures..."


give me a chance... from my new video... only a snippet... I still thinking...

"I'm the one that's got to die when it's time for me to die..."

Take Care! 
Thanks for 47.000 likes on facebook!  

I’ll drown...

what I did in the last days?
I've done a special photo shoot for my dear friend : 
Lara La Voe, who will soon release her second book! 
and I have to say! She is a perfectionist!!

She knows what she wants! and it was an honor for me to help her be a part of her work .. her vision...

Before I show you some pictures, a few words from Lara!

"FOREVER YOUNG"

She was born at dawn, when the first beam of the sun... which haven't gone out for her for thousands of years.
She saw everything - the beginning and the end, life and death.
Each world.
Birth and death of kings, queens.
She saw the end the power of antiquity.
She watched the fall of the French monarchy.
And end of period.
Preserved youth, but has rejected humanity.
Aurora, goddess, eternally young, in search her house, a country where the queen will be.
I have met Aurora years ago and I'll never forget the first one, a silent conversation, that look of wisdom, glances, in which the hidden history of the world. Her eyes lit a light in my heart, the light that does not go out, sometimes only smoldering, but it is still visible, still visible, still full of hope. Aurora is a country in which no visitors gloomy night ... this country dawn morning. It's natural forces: air, water, soft, subtle, and yet so powerful and indestructible.
Soon I will share with you the story of Aurora, but now, for the time being ... in the meantime ... admire her face. The face of a woman whose beauty will never fade, and eternal life will change the course of the world" 

Lara La Voe
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This day was special :) and I want to thank you with all my heart "Isztarin" who has meke wonderful make up and thanks for the beautiful model :)  
This is not the end... over time there will be more stuff :) 
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Eric Vaughn Tarriela Gariando won the competition for the best photo (of yourself)!! There are so many moments you can share with anyone... what a wonderful relationship! 
really like it! :)  

His photo: 

will write to him today! :) 

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and a photo taken a week ago...
haven't had a chance to show earlier... Radoslav! 

near future... hope that everything goes according to my plan! :)

but!! I guess you don't care... vacation! :P 
and probably you enjoy your free day :) 
be Careful friends! :) 

Always know when to stop...

I don't know what to say first...

 recently I recorded part of my new video... 

I called it "The Cry Of The Soul"... why?

I want to show you my image of "fear", "anxiety", but I mean the internal state.... what's "going on" in my mind

(nothing is clear ) 

 This is a brief "picture" of what I always wanted to show...

 it can't be described in words...

I feel a great desire to create something... something that will help me to show what I can't say...

"The Cry of The Soul" 

The soul is our private part... I am not talking here about faith. I just want to show that everyone is different... and the "soul" is this element that clearly distinguishes us... soul can be everything for us...

rose is a one of the symbol of my videos. everything has own importance and it is part of what I am experiencing .. (and maybe you too)

+Lord Guan 

Here is a short trailer!(sounds like I recorded a great movie :P)

(you can you turn down the sound at the top of the screen)

 

btw I want to thank all of you who sent me your photo!

 I made a special collage :P You are all great!!! 

and here's me ^^ taken by N.S :) 

we made this photo in the middle of the night... wasn't planned .. but we wanted to do something :) 

we watched the various portfolios of the various model agencies :P and finally we took the camera and we walked around the house and take some photos ^^ 

and here new photo shoot... taken yesterday :) 

the weather was great...

 and finally photo with my own photographer!!! one and only!  

      Take Care friends! Have a nice week! :)